This means War!

 Today has been my worst day yet, in terms of actually feeling ill. It began with a bout of emesis in the middle of the night. That was not much, but it was unpleasant. I needed more transfusions this morning, too. My body is swelling up like a balloon from the "buckets of salt water," according to the HemOnc, that they are pouring into me. 

The outcome of it all has been a day when all I want to do is sleep. I have had no appetite today, although I did make myself eat some saltines with peanut butter. What I think I have realized is that my body is severely bloated, which makes me feel sluggish and immobile. 

All of these symptoms, I am told, are normal. This is the beginning of the battle within my body. The chemo is beginning to kill off the bad cells, and my body is fighting back. It's like a big war going on in there. But why did I have to be the battlefield?

Jill, bless her heart, has been here with me all day keeping people informed that I am still among the living, if not among the thriving at the moment. I will bounce back, because I have so many people to whom I owe a debt of gratitude for prayers and well wishes and offers of help that I will need years just to express my thanks. 

So, bear with me as the battle begins. I need all of this support to keep the emotional balance required to wage this war. Thank you, one and all, from the bottom of my heart. Soldier on!

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  1. Bob SJuly 5, 2021 at 12:45 AM

    Soldier on indeed Tom. You do have an army of prayer warriors by your side even though you can't see them. We remember both you and Jill in our prayers daily. What a horrible thing to have to fight, but God is in your midst every step of the way. God bless you dear brother. Donalynn

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  2. Bob SJuly 5, 2021 at 10:18 AM

    Tom;

    I wish I knew how to enter in to your world and let you know that your present experience matters to me. Indeed, if I could I would do so, but alas, it seems this is Tom's journey and not mine. As the old hymn declares: "Oh no body else can walk it for you. You've got to walk it for yourself." And of course the same hymn declares that Jesus had to walk His journey "for us". Maybe you can find much solace there, knowing that our Lord has suffered "for us" and you can have this common bond with Christ. I have not suffered too deeply in my physical body, but I have suffered deeply in my sould and spirit and even though I knew that even my wife could not understand my pain, Jesus understood and comprehended completely. Don't experience your pain alone Tom. Experience all of this next to the only One who knows what you know. And then - know that your suffering this ordeal matters to me. My prayers are with you.

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  3. Stephen NoellJuly 5, 2021 at 3:38 PM

    Thanks for the regular updates Tom, I'm sorry it was a tough day yesterday! Praying for strength and courage for the difficult days and especially that God would be with you through it all.

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